In the end, all the troubles will just fade away.

55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)

SW for this try: 55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)

weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)

weight I want to be: 46.18 kg (101.8 lbs)

weight to lose: 9.53 kg (21 lbs)

Well, now I understand where the week-long chocolate binge was coming from: my period started today. (Adjusted my starting weight... seems more fair this way.)

Still swollen. 

Still feeling like a big repugnant toad. 

Still planning on getting rid of those 21 pounds. 

(20 days as of today)

Drinking red wine. Eating caffeine pills like candy. 

Listening to the rain and Coldplay's old songs.

You're amazing, darlings.

This kind of support is all I need right now.

Love you love you love you.

We'll make it through... because we have each other.

Lu.

How to lose 21 pounds in 21 days?

... oh, I don't know. Yet.

(I'm going to find out)

Byyy the way, you know what's new? 

I'm 127 pounds. Hell yeah. I tried this new thing-- eating healthy, five times a day, lots of fruits, vegetables, yogurt... stuff like that... yeah. Didn't work, as you can tell. How did I not see this coming? It's kind of funny, actually, and I'm not even sure why I think it's so hilarious-- this is, in fact, the first time in weeks that I've given any thought to my weight at all and I'm just... amazed. Well, I've admitted the number... that's the first step, I guess. No, honestly, it's disgusting how repugnant I feel right now.

Talked to my parents yesterday, and my brother's reaction when he saw me on the video was "What's wrong? You look... swollen." Yup. Swollen. SWOLLEN.

No more eating for me.

21 days. I'm challenging myself.

Oh, bring it on, baby.

57.6 kg (127 lbs)

SW for this try: 57.6 kg (127 lbs)

weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)

weight I want to be: 48 kg (106 lbs)

weight to lose: 9.53 kg (21 lbs)

Yup. Lu is here. At least for the next... forever.

Love you, darlings.

Sorry for such weird post.

Try and fail, but don't fail to try.

55 kg (121.25 lbs)

-----------------BMI 21--------------

SW for this try: 56 kg (123.46 lbs)

weight lost: 1 kg (2.20 lbs)

weight to lose: 7 kg (15.43 lbs)

Trying new things: caffeine pills and laxatives. 

Not sure how much of a good combination that is, but we’ll see. Please don’t worry, I won’t abuse those, I’m not stupid and I like myself too much.

November?

Where did summer go?

Love,

Lu.