El tiempo da buen consejo.

52.7 kg (116.18 lbs)

---------BMI 20.1---------

weight lost: 2.3 kg (5.07 lbs)

weight to lose: 4.7 kg (10.36 lbs)

I told you once that in the end, I always come back. This is far from the end, and I have returned: I've missed you immensely, and a lot has happened that I need to update you on. Mid- June, I hit a plateau, I was desperate, miserable, depressed, call it whatever you'd like: I had been at home for more than a month and none of my friends seemed to care: no one was calling me, no one wanted to see me, talk to me, and no one at home seemed to notice I was feeling so down... I don't think I'd ever felt as lonely as I did those weeks.

Shortly before the end of June, my mom decided we were going on a family vacation and within 2 days, everything was booked and we left for Greece's greenest island, Rhodes. 12 days where no one knew me, where I could put a bathing suit on and not feel too ashamed (it was still pre-summer season time and mainly retired Italian couples in the hotel and on the beach), making my own decisions about food (buffet style meals), spending time with my parents-- it was exactly what I needed. I feel much better now, having lost a little bit of weight, thinking more optimistic thoughts and mentally preparing myself for a huge turning point in my life- laser eye surgery. Even though I haven't been able to find a summer job, my parents decided to pay for it (which I will, of course, give back to them sometime since I wanted to pay for it from my own pocket). It might seem like a not too much of a big thing, but it's a huge deal for me: I've been wearing glasses since I was 7 and can't imagine what it's like to be able to see without them. If everything goes well, the surgery will take place on Jul 26, in less then 2 weeks. 

Drinking apple cider vinegar in the morning.

Fruit and coffee for breakfast.

(Still purging lunches... I know, I know...)

Eating light dinners.

Sorry I've been such a mess... sometimes all we need is some time.

I've missed you and I love you very much.

I love you.

Lu.

There are times when silence has the loudest voice.

53.2 kg (117.29 lbs)

---------BMI 20.3---------

weight lost: 1.8 kg (3.97 lbs)

weight to lose: 5.2 kg (11.46 lbs)

breakfast: a cup of coffee with a little bit of milk (20 cal)

lunch: breaded cod and salad (~200 cal)

snacks: 
pb&j toast (100 cal)

2 pieces of cake my mom made (~300 cal)

Lu.

Happiness is the feeling you're feeling when you want to keep feeling it.

53.7 kg (118.39 lbs)

---------BMI 20.5---------

weight lost: 1.3 kg (2.87 lbs)

weight to lose: 5.7 kg (12.57 lbs)

breakfast: a cup of coffee with a little bit of milk (20 cal)

lunch: fried fish with potatoes (~450 cal)

dinner

I'm going to have lunch right now, then I'll read your blogs and catch up on your latest posts- at least that way I won't have time to think about food and snacks (that's my true downfall-- snacking on anything and everything at random times-- I would ask you what your temptation is, but that would only make you think about what you usually crave-- and, as we all know, it always starts with the tiniest thought-- so, stop thinking about whatever you started thinking of right now :). Hmm, my stomach's growling, and the sound's strangely comforting. 

Do you happen to know any good home exercises for losing the belly fat? The "tire" (as we call it here) around my hipbones is something I should really work on.

Here is some 'relaxing' thinspo for today 

(that made me smile- love you Camille!):

Have a wonderful day, my loves!

And I know you will, because, right now...

... (maybe remind yourself of the dream or think of all the beautiful things around you-- the small things that make you happy) and smile!

Love you so very much, sweethearts!

Have a lovely day!

Lu.