You need to choose whether you want to be liked or admired.

54.8 kg (120.81 lbs)

SW for this try: 55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)

weight lost: 0.9 kg (1.98 lbs)

weight I want to be: 46.18 kg (101.8 lbs)

weight to lose: 8.63 kg (19.02 lbs)

I'm hungry and it makes my stomach so upset that even if I ate something right now, it wouldn't stay in. I'm getting there, 18 days, 19 pounds. I found this out in the past-- after the third day of a fast, the pounds start dropping by themselves... the challenge is to make it past that third day. I can I can I can.

And I will. 

It's not much of a choice for me, really... it's crystal clear: 

I want to be admired.

And I will be.

Let's have a successful day, my loves.

Let's do this so we can fly.

Love, hugs, and kisses,

Lu.

P.S. Make sure you don't forget to smile today.

In the end, all the troubles will just fade away.

55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)

SW for this try: 55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)

weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)

weight I want to be: 46.18 kg (101.8 lbs)

weight to lose: 9.53 kg (21 lbs)

Well, now I understand where the week-long chocolate binge was coming from: my period started today. (Adjusted my starting weight... seems more fair this way.)

Still swollen. 

Still feeling like a big repugnant toad. 

Still planning on getting rid of those 21 pounds. 

(20 days as of today)

Drinking red wine. Eating caffeine pills like candy. 

Listening to the rain and Coldplay's old songs.

You're amazing, darlings.

This kind of support is all I need right now.

Love you love you love you.

We'll make it through... because we have each other.

Lu.

How to lose 21 pounds in 21 days?

... oh, I don't know. Yet.

(I'm going to find out)

Byyy the way, you know what's new? 

I'm 127 pounds. Hell yeah. I tried this new thing-- eating healthy, five times a day, lots of fruits, vegetables, yogurt... stuff like that... yeah. Didn't work, as you can tell. How did I not see this coming? It's kind of funny, actually, and I'm not even sure why I think it's so hilarious-- this is, in fact, the first time in weeks that I've given any thought to my weight at all and I'm just... amazed. Well, I've admitted the number... that's the first step, I guess. No, honestly, it's disgusting how repugnant I feel right now.

Talked to my parents yesterday, and my brother's reaction when he saw me on the video was "What's wrong? You look... swollen." Yup. Swollen. SWOLLEN.

No more eating for me.

21 days. I'm challenging myself.

Oh, bring it on, baby.

57.6 kg (127 lbs)

SW for this try: 57.6 kg (127 lbs)

weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)

weight I want to be: 48 kg (106 lbs)

weight to lose: 9.53 kg (21 lbs)

Yup. Lu is here. At least for the next... forever.

Love you, darlings.

Sorry for such weird post.