Tuesday, November 29, 2011

You need to choose whether you want to be liked or admired.

Tumblr_lv4zbqpaeh1qj3hyao1_1280_large

54.8 kg (120.81 lbs)
SW for this try: 55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)
weight lost: 0.9 kg (1.98 lbs)
weight I want to be: 46.18 kg (101.8 lbs)
weight to lose: 8.63 kg (19.02 lbs)

I'm hungry and it makes my stomach so upset that even if I ate something right now, it wouldn't stay in. I'm getting there, 18 days, 19 pounds. I found this out in the past-- after the third day of a fast, the pounds start dropping by themselves... the challenge is to make it past that third day. I can I can I can.

And I will. 

It's not much of a choice for me, really... it's crystal clear: 
I want to be admired.

And I will be.

104227545_large
385236_2263209341227_1278280698_32104420_1008870844_n_large
Tumblr_lt2sb18mbs1r1mmjeo1_500_large
1247841513279255_large
4010190438_6f43281f75_large
Tumblr_ltuqibmc251qaay1oo1_500_large
225639_170918402962108_100001318485372_374226_4617771_n_large
Fire,hope,life,quote,message,funny,quotes-aa0244a146ff1e6ba7efe4ef0b3c5ac1_h_large
Tumblr_llddaueoni1qdl8xro1_500_large
Tumblr_lv0mwindwt1qc3ouro1_1280_largeTumblr_limiicrodw1qasbnm_large

Let's have a successful day, my loves.
Let's do this so we can fly.

Tumblr_ls5jowo3os1qm5niuo1_500_large

Love, hugs, and kisses,
Lu.

P.S. Make sure you don't forget to smile today.

X_05a8f8ad_large

Monday, November 28, 2011

In the end, all the troubles will just fade away.

179801_197096366969069_100000061223534_740304_242707_n_large

55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)
SW for this try: 55.7 kg (122.8 lbs)
weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)
weight I want to be: 46.18 kg (101.8 lbs)
weight to lose: 9.53 kg (21 lbs)

Well, now I understand where the week-long chocolate binge was coming from: my period started today. (Adjusted my starting weight... seems more fair this way.)

Still swollen. 
Still feeling like a big repugnant toad. 
Still planning on getting rid of those 21 pounds. 
(20 days as of today)

Drinking red wine. Eating caffeine pills like candy. 
Listening to the rain and Coldplay's old songs.

Tumblr_ludbnbcwox1ql7cx6o1_500_large
1744917_dreamylb_large
1239425-11-1320060641303_large
42_large
1322250844_tumblr_lv41ljuokp1qlwf6ao1_500_large_large
30bb68d31618ddaea0bc8433d6c61fd7_large
Tumblr_lvcbity6ra1qc144qo1_500_large
44b098c300250ac94e41a276_large
Tumblr_lv0wotslgp1qbwiabo1_500_large
Julia_saner3_large
Tumblr_lkpuuk98at1qckrw9o1_500_large
Tumblr_luoiqdczoa1r48uqdo1_500_large
Tumblr_lujghssveg1r10beyo1_500_large
Tumblr_lv5ytg2uar1qk205co1_1280_large
Tumblr_ltmq2yzjkj1qd1ovxo1_1280_large
Tumblr_kxqpd1vuqg1qabdz5o1_500_large
Tumblr_lv0s54z9cj1qeved3o1_500_large
294803_292829880728508_100000044954405_1247734_331247416_n_large
Tumblr_lsf96wwpx81qe06xjo1_500_large
Tumblr_lrfbg74tu41qcmngio1_500_large
Fashion-photography-by-artur-verkhovetskiy-1-125059-320-213_large
Fams507dreamuntilyourdreamscometrue_large
Tumblr_ls56haiiz91qgsifeo1_500_large
6279032702_5e100f340c_z_large
Tumblr_ls2kjofbgm1r1dbfyo1_500_large
Tumblr_ltarfxbara1qj00rlo1_1280_large

You're amazing, darlings.
This kind of support is all I need right now.

Tumblr_ltzhhtwob21qk3wsko1_500_large
Tumblr_lvaabc8faj1r0mht0o1_500_large

Love you love you love you.
We'll make it through... because we have each other.

Lu.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

How to lose 21 pounds in 21 days?

Tttc-paradise02_large

... oh, I don't know. Yet.
(I'm going to find out)

Byyy the way, you know what's new? 

I'm 127 pounds. Hell yeah. I tried this new thing-- eating healthy, five times a day, lots of fruits, vegetables, yogurt... stuff like that... yeah. Didn't work, as you can tell. How did I not see this coming? It's kind of funny, actually, and I'm not even sure why I think it's so hilarious-- this is, in fact, the first time in weeks that I've given any thought to my weight at all and I'm just... amazed. Well, I've admitted the number... that's the first step, I guess. No, honestly, it's disgusting how repugnant I feel right now.

Talked to my parents yesterday, and my brother's reaction when he saw me on the video was "What's wrong? You look... swollen." Yup. Swollen. SWOLLEN.

No more eating for me.
21 days. I'm challenging myself.
Oh, bring it on, baby.

57.6 kg (127 lbs)
SW for this try: 57.6 kg (127 lbs)
weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)
weight I want to be: 48 kg (106 lbs)
weight to lose: 9.53 kg (21 lbs)

Tumblr_lsgpe9jn0z1qbcewyo1_500_large
Tumblr_lt4vj9j6nn1qblu4lo1_500_large
Tumblr_luak65vw011qe91pso1_400_large
Tumblr_lrqcutwvql1qziyqpo1_500_large
Tumblr_lt7v415vop1qfvdzjo1_500_large
Tumblr_ltm3a3kaef1r22ub2o1_400_large
Tumblr_lug2f4mcyx1qe91pso1_400_large
Tumblr_locxlwu4ty1qmipnqo1_400_large
Inspiration_fashion_vintage_tumblr_fumiko+kawa_53_large
A701fc97897d_large
Tumblr_ltfg1kipug1qd36rxo1_1280_large
Tumblr_linuk3mrbn1qcef8go1_400_large
Tumblr_lkwwj1putp1qd1nuao1_400_large
Tumblr_lhntcn1r7l1qzx5i0o1_500_large

Yup. Lu is here. At least for the next... forever.

Love you, darlings.
Sorry for such weird post.