Wednesday, June 1, 2011

The world is full of cactus, but you don't have to sit on it.

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Pfff. Frustrated. 

I'm craving sugar, carbs, and chocolate. I feel so bloated, it seems like my body is clinging to every drop of water I've ever given it and last night I ate like the world was about to end. This all can mean only one thing- it's almost that time of month. I don't even feel like posting my weight today, it's only going to make me feel worse. I'll resume soon though- I have to have the goal before my eyes at all times... just not today.

In the morning, I was thinking about you girls. In my head, I was going through the hundreds of posts I've read and the comments I've ever written and received, and was wondering what happens to the girls that suddenly stop blogging or decide to leave. Do they find the peace they were so eager to find? Do they still have the dreams they once had? Do they still have the same ideals and... do they ever think of the past? With my whole heart and soul, I wish them the best of luck and hope they find what they were looking for... and that they are happy now.

I love you so much, darlings.

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Hope you have a beautiful day,
Lu.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

He that waits upon fortune is never sure of a dinner.

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53.5 kg (117.95 lbs)
---------BMI 20.4---------
weight lost: 2.2 kg (4.85 lbs)
weight to lose: 5.5 kg (12.13 lbs)

Catching up on the episodes of America's Next Top Model I missed while I was studying for finals and getting ready for home. Although I don't particularly like the girls on the show, they are thin and look good in (almost ;) everything they put on ... and that's precisely what I need at the moment-- to see what I can be if I stay focused.

breakfast: a cup of coffee with a little bit of milk (20 cal)
lunch: pork roast with dumplings (~370 cal)
dinner

Need to send in my CV today: I'd like to earn some money this summer so I can get the laser eye surgery I've been dreaming about for the longest time... my mom said they'd pay for it if I want it so much, but I don't want that.... I'd really like to earn the money myself and prove (mainly to myself) that I can. Please wish me luck, I'll really need it.

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Today will be a good day.

Love,
Lu.

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