Monday, March 5, 2012

Most fears are irrational: it's all in our head... and we can, we can, we can.

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57.8 kg (127.43 lbs)
SW for this try: 57.8 kg (127.43 lbs)
weight lost: 0 kg (0 lbs)
weight I want to be: 48 kg (105.82 lbs)
weight to lose: 9.8 kg (21.61 lbs)

Whatever I've been doing (or rather not doing) hasn't been working.
I need this so much, yet I find myself failing, eating, purging, 
gaining weight,and getting bigger and bigger. Even though random 
people tell me I'm beautiful, I don't believe them because I remember 
how slender I was over the summer, when I was so very close 
to my goals. I need it back, I need to be a thinner myself.

This has got to stop.
I'm getting my old self-control back.

P.S. It's been 7 weeks that I've been in London. 
More about that next time, for now, let me just say- I feel at home.
Con= controlling what I eat is a lot harder here than at my college.

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Here's to me.
Here's to us.
Here's to finding what we thought was lost.
Here's to regaining self-control.

Lu.