Sweat today, smile tomorrow.

Today marks the beginning of my 30 day liquid diet challenge.

I'm focused, I'm strong. After all, I'm the determined girl, right?

Diet coke and 2 cigarettes for breakfast.

45 minutes of yoga at noon.

Coffee, diet coke and 2 cigarettes for lunch.

60 minutes on the elliptical as a study break.

60 minutes of spinning in the evening.

2 cigarettes for dinner.

(hm, I see a pattern here)

I can honestly say I missed the feeling of nothingness inside me; the emptiness in my stomach is cheering me on, and I'm proud I did so well today. The real challenge will be to make it through tonight, not thinking of food. But I can do this, and tomorrow will be just as good.

 

SW: 60.4 kg (133.6 lbs)

CW: 59.0 kg (130.07 lbs)

 

 December 14, 2012: 53.5 kg (118 lbs)

 

  

 Lots and lots and lots of love to you, sweethearts.

It's always difficult to get back on track, but we're no quitters. Giving up at the beginning of the race is not an option! Tomorrow will be amazing!

Lu.

P.S. Don't forget to smile!

It's simple, really. Don't overthink. Take a deep breath. Let go.

Last night was a binging/purging adventure. Not good, not good.

Ate half a bag of jelly beans for lunch today. Purged.

At least there's no fat in them, right? Except the fact they're pure sugar.

Anyway. The failures don't define me because I simply won't let them.

Tomorrow's another day. Tomorrow will be better.

Just came back from a spinning class where I gave a serious thought to the month-long liquid diet. Maybe it's a stupid idea to even start now, keeping in mind that next week my friends will make me eat Thanksgiving dinner, but I need to begin. That's the first step, right?

And I made the decision. 

Yes, I want to do this. 

And yes, I will do this.  

I can do this.

Tomorrow's November 14, exactly one month before I go back home for my Christmas break. I will do this. I know I could do even better, but for now, my goal is to lose 15 pounds so I can look the way I did over the summer. And a little better.

I've failed so many times in past.

But here's to a new try.

Here's to a new beginning.

Here's to a new me.

SW on November 13, 2012: 60.4 kg (133.6 lbs)

December 14, 2012: 53.5 kg (118 lbs)

 I love you, sweethearts.

Yours,

determined Lu.

Be so good they can't ignore you.

Ah, what a night, guys.

The complete draft of my thesis is due today at midnight, and I've done awfully little during my all-nighter. Tried to take an hour-long nap, but the guilt was just too much. Didn't sleep at all.

The upside was that I went to spinning at 5:35am and stayed in the gym for 35 more minutes afterwards; burned a little less than a 1,000 calories altogether. And then I decided to go to breakfast. I know, right? Managed to keep it at a cup of coffee and a bowl of oatmeal with a banana. Later- purged. A friend persuaded me to go to lunch with her, and I had a cup of coffee. After lunch- a cup of granola...yes, wonderful. Purged.
Need to stop doing that. Will stop doing that.
In the evening, I went to another spinning class. My stomach's growling, and I'm trying to trick it by drinking coffee. That's it for dinner, dearest me.

Googled how much weight you can lose on a month-long liquid diet. 20-30 pounds? Really? Wow. That really sounds intriguing.

Last night, my boyfriend told me he hired a personal fitness trainer so he can look his best when I get home. Isn't that cute?

But how about my fat self?

No pressure, right??














 My inspiration is yet to find me working.
Need to try harder. Want to try harder. Will try harder.
Tomorrow will be a good day for all of us.
I believe in us, darlings.

Love you very much,
Lu.