Wednesday, February 27, 2013

If we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives.

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Day 1: January 24, 2013 
SW: 62 kg (136.69 lbs) 
CW: 55.9 kg (123.24 lbs)
UGW: 48 kg (105.82 lbs) 
weight lost: 6.1 kg (13.45 lbs)
weight to lose: 7.9 kg (17.42 lbs)

I hate negative people yet take satisfaction in wallowing in misery.
I cannot stand weakness yet sometimes find myself wanting to give up.
I could never tolerate lies yet have brought the art of deception to absolute perfection.
I always try to help people come out of their shells yet I myself have built thick brick walls around me.
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Sometimes I wonder whether I'm a paradox myself or simply a hypocrite.
And then I shush myself with the comforting thought that maybe it's all just a defense mechanism to never let anyone see how fragile I really am.

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My life as of lately:

 
P.S. Where do I find my motivation? It's no motivation, really... it's a given for me that I need to get as far away as humanly possible from who I've become; and because I still believe that together with all of it came the fat, I need to get rid of it. (And maybe then I'll find peace.)

Love you.
Lu.