Thursday, January 31, 2013

Get busy living, or get busy dying.

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Almost February.

Somehow my life always seems to alternate between too many emotions and absolute emptiness. People always tell me that I'm a woman of extremes. One or the other, black or color, all or nothing. There's too much of me at the moment, and I want the complete opposite. I'll get there, and you will, too, my darlings.
 
Meanwhile, the days are passing by, one by one, and I'm disappearing slowly, ounce by ounce. Sometimes I wish I would disappear completely, but then I make myself think of how wonderful life will be once I'm thin, fragile and beautiful. 
Because one day, I will have succeeded. 
One day, I will be beautiful.
 
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You know, my loves, it might seem like we have a very long and tiring journey ahead of us (and yes, we do indeed), but it is going to be worth the struggle in the end; the people who now criticize us (yes, dad, I saw the look of disgust you did not even try to hide as you watched me put a teaspoon of low-fat sour cream on my salad at dinner today) will have no other choice than to say:

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This post is SO all over the place, I realize.
Well...


;)
Love you, my sweethearts.
Lu.

3 comments:

  1. We will get there, good luck darling <3
    Alice xx

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  2. Never underestimate the power of baby steps. If you take enough of them, you get to where you want to be.

    Thank you for your comment and reminding me to look at the beauty instead of the ugly of life.

    Love you <3

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  3. Such pretty, pretty pictures :)

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