We spend too much time wondering why we're not good enough.

 

My finals are done; 

my fall semester is done.

Laundry day tomorrow,

packing day the day after tomorrow 

and leaving day the day after the day after tomorrow.

I can't wait

I can't wait

I can't wait.

I'm sorry for being such a grump yesterday;

I tend to over-think... everything.

***

I love you so much, girls.

Hope you have a beautiful day,

wherever you are.

Not enough...

Stuck between 53 and 54 kg (119~117 lbs)

and I have three more days before going home... home.

I can't wait to be with my family again;

it's seems like forever that I've been stuck in

this circle of school-lecture-homework-a little bit of sleep-school.

I'm trying so hard to be patient and not give up right now...

Even more and more snow these days.

I'm trying, I really am...
I just feel like no matter what I do, it's never enough...
I've never been as good as they think and oh,
I so want to prove myself wrong, but somehow,
it's always
always
always
 been about the others
...

Do you sometimes miss someone so much that it hurts?

It's my best friend's birthday today;

she's a thousand miles away, and words simply 

cannot explain how very much I miss her. 

For the two hardest years of my life, she was my everything.

Wish we could be together right now, just

like in the old times.

I've had enough of school this semester,

but I need to hang in there... 2 more exams on Wednesday;

then I can start thinking about packing...

Hope you're all well, my dear ones.

Hang in there, my loves. They've all made it, so why shouldn't we?

I'd just like to say (and I will never get tired of repeating it)

  thank you so very much for you gorgeous comments, my loves. 

We're all trying our best, and sometimes we all need

to read encouraging words... and that's what I'm here for. 

***

We're all on our way to perfection and knowing you

read my words and look at my pictures makes me

oh so incredibly happy and so much stronger

in my belief that one day, we will be beautiful.

Chemistry final tomorrow afternoon. *sigh*

Today, two more comments about my recent weight loss;

and they have no idea how much they've assured me that

what I'm doing, I'm doing right. 

Yes, I will keep on going.

I love you so very much, sweethearts.

Your friend always,

Lu.

No, nothing is impossible, dear ones.
Once you've found the strength that's been hiding
inside you, it's so easy to carry on.
In the past couple of days, I've been told by more than five people
I've lost a lot of weight this semester. People start to notice...
and that gives me the strength to continue.

I really, really, really want to be down
to 52 kg (~115 lbs) before Friday.
I'll do my best, I promise.

7 days before going home; I couldn't be more excited.

Love you so much, girls.

It always happens when you least expect it.

I'm losing weight, because that is not me.

53.4 kg (117.73 lbs)

My lowest weight. Ever.

***

Last night- a sleepless night. 

Liters of coffee, water, coffee and water. And coffee.

An essay due tomorrow and three finals next week.

I know I can... we all can, my loves.

Last day of classes tomorrow.

A week before I start packing.

I love you, girls. Thank you for your beautiful comments.

Beginning of the end.

Last school Thursday of the
semester before the finals week.

Snow everywhere, Christmas music playing on my iTunes;
time of the all-nighters, zillion of assignments

and big, cumulative exams.
5 classes, one paper, 5 finals before going home.
Fun times, what can I say.

Lots of love, sweethearts.

Stay strong and positive!